Outgrow.

Long time no see?

Came across this interesting fact: Other animals live in the present, but humans don't, so they invented HOPE. Relapsing into phases and waking up the next day as if nothing happened has been my most practiced exercise this year. Lost a lot of weight and they say I am hot now. It's the stress guys, the stress.

You know what the purest form of love can be, taking people as they are, and not what they could be because you can't control the wind, but you can always adjust the sails.

I play a lot by worst-case scenarios. I would imagine all the possible outcomes, people dying, I am dying, getting killed, dreams crashing, collapsing, like every possible outcome to a situation to save my heart from trouble later. I'd say don't google it for a clinical explanation. Just don't.

Sometimes people don't have the capacity to worry about you, and it; 's said that fortune favors bravery. So? Umm, you let memories and expectations drive you crazy until you start loving yourself and take that step.

Time is mistaken for growth, and growth for the sake of growing, is also the idealogy of a cancer cell. Unsolved behavioral patterns and trauma are like muddy water, it might seem clear when left still but as soon as you accidentally touch it, you are back to square once.

Striking a balance between myself and the world has been the most difficult task to do lately. You fail to recognize, and at times set yourself on fire to keep others warm. Brushing away with thoughts like dudh ka jala chaaj bhi phuk phukke peeta hai, jo hota hai ache keliye hota hai.

As of now, life is about juggling between a village and a circus.

Do I save my village or do I whisper "Not my circus, not my money, but I know the clowns"

Anyway don't worry about the Salty memories, stolen kisses, and late apologies because Everything you love will probably be lost, but in the end, love will return in another way.

I know this is quite a disappointing one, but it's okay yaar. Hota hai kabhi kabhi.

Until next time, XOXO, Ammu,